"I never pay full price, and my favorite stage of grief is bargaining" - Moving Out
Moving Out is about my divorce. Rio Vista is about my father. And Humans Trying is about suicide, and whatever little spark is there that drives us to keep on living. These are very vulnerable recordings, stripped down arraignments with lyrics laid bare. And some of the lyrics here still feel too personal to highlight and share, and feel much safer left behind in their obscurity. But in the name of vulnerability I want to go against that instinct, and highlight and share what's here once again. Because listening back to these songs this weekend has felt like a true gut-punch for me. Which means that, despite their primitive production and recording imperfections, they succeed at connecting something- even if it is just connecting me with me.
He's trying to connect it back together
the year-end weather isn't helping he's given up here, he's given up there he's given up looking, except as a means to distract from cold setting in the summer years behind him and not much to show: a job that keeps him sane, family to not shame a small furry helpless roommate. in the parking lot at the store wondering what's it for Feel this now and keep trying She's just trying to keep it all together her little miracle won't calm down fear and self doubt, no clear way out assignments and bills keep piling up using every ounce of discipline to surrender again and again and again and again every day, a leap of faith and reason to have joy in the face of it all the future only makes us worry the past only makes us sad be present now and keep trying. while we're here please try to cut me a break, because I'm only trying while we're here I'm gonna cut you a break, I know you're only trying
I am relieved to say that I can reflect back on these past struggles from a much happier place now. But if you are struggling with thoughts of suicide, help is available - please reach out. In the U.S. the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available to call and talk with someone 24/7 at 800-273-8255.
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Back in 2012, when I first bought my electric guitar and was trying to write songs & learn to play while singing, I had this concept for my debut that would be basically a story told for different months of the year - specifically the year 2011, since I guess I had a lot of stuff to work through then.
As a related side note, our 2016 "Humble Tracks" is available now on Spotify as well. Check out the videos for "August" (parts 1 and 2), filmed when the recordings were made. The demo for Don't Even Try was originally recorded on my cell phone in January 2013 with vocals added in November 2020, and the acoustic version of Mop & Bucket was recorded in October 2020.
And the live video of "Blame the Dog" and "Fallout" was recorded in the Murder Room in 2018 and 2019 respectively. Watching these reminds me of how much I miss playing shows right now, but damn these are some good memories that I couldn't help but want to share. Thanks for indulging us!
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